Saturday, May 28, 2011

To my friends,
It has been many months since I last wrote on my blog and I apologize to you for that. A lot has happened. In February, I was admitted into the hospital for congestive heart failure, and that has changed my life, as you can probably imagine. Please, please do not take your health for granted! If you have anything going on that you are not sure about, see your doctor early. Don't wait like I did, it is a hard road to take.
Looking over the past few years, I've had to assess my behavior and personality, too. Several dear friends have ended their friendship with me, which hurt. Each of them had their reasons, and I respect their decision. I miss them every day. Anyway, some serious changes needed to be made. I am now (again) in a 12-step program, "clean and sober". No one but me is responsible for my behavior, my actions and my thinking. There is a measure of peace that dwells within me now. I wish I could go back and make changes so that loved ones wouldn't have been hurt by my behavior, but I can only move forward. My goal is to live authentically in the moment, every single day, for however long God gives me.
more later...I'm getting treated to dinner! :)